A word before you read:
This is something that I wrote when I was struggling a lot. I was trying to figure out who I was and I was in a relationship that was unhealthy and controlling. In light of a recent event, I wanted to share something that came from me when I was in a very dark place.
If you find yourself in a place like this, please talk to someone. You are so loved.
June 21, 2014
Your words, they try to get to me
But when they hurt, you’ll never know.
I’ll keep a mask of complacency,
My feelings will never show.
Angry and bitter, I’ll always be,
My name justifies this sin.
Demons of strife surround me-
This time I may let them win.
Trying so hard to make it okay,
The struggle to make my life right.
Most times I’m able throughout the day,
But sometimes I can’t put up a fight.
Falling to pieces, my insides a sham,
I wish that I was enough.
Sometimes I just hate who I am,
I’m ready to call off this bluff.