My dear friend, Amy, was like a sister to me. Due to the restrictions with Covid-19, I didn’t get to attend her funeral. I decided to write her this letter to honor her and also deal with my own grief which, at the moment, is anger.

Dear Amy,

Wow, this is a hard letter to write. I can’t believe it has been almost five weeks since you passed away. It doesn’t seem possible. I was in shock when your husband, David, left us a message early on the morning of June 27, 2020. This year has sucked enough with the whole Covid-19 Pandemic and now to lose you too.

I didn’t want to believe what I was reading when he sent us the message. I was barely awake that early morning in June when I saw it and immediately went into panic mode. I managed to ask David how you had passed away and he said you collapsed and later revealed you died of a sudden heart attack.

To say it came without warning is an understatement, Amy—I don’t even think you knew.

Right now I have my good days and bad days and, at this time, I am angry. I know God had a plan and I have prayed about it but I am still at a loss for words. I am keeping busy and we are looking out for David. I can’t imagine this has been easy on him or your dad and all those that love you. All I do know is that for Jeremy and I, this has been harder than we ever imagined.

There were so many things we were all going to do together.  We had talked about getting together after this whole pandemic got better. I loved how excited you were to hangout again when all was better. I loved how we could both vent about this ordeal and check in with each other.

The hardest part was dealing with the fact that I have lost another amazing person in my life.  As you knew already losing Eloisa (who was my sister for life growing up in Brownsville, Texas) in 2017 was the worst feeling in the world and I still have my moments about that. It is never easy losing those we love. I remember telling Eloisa about you and she was so happy I had found an amazing friend here in NC.

The only solace that gave me comfort is knowing you two have met and are now with our father in heaven. As I said, my faith has been strong but I am still dealing with the grief of your loss and praying every day. I am sure you are overjoyed at being with your beloved mom. Do not worry, I will continue to hold you dear and watch over those you love. I know you would have done the same for me. I hope you know how much we all love and miss you but, for now, we will carry you in our hearts forever.

Love,

Sylvia