I remember a time when things were perfect between us. Those days when we waited anxiously to see one another again. How when we were together, we were inseparable. It felt as though we could conquer anything together. We were soulmates.

We would spend our days playing in rivers, lakes, and oceans where the cool waters would cool us as we sat together sharing great memories. We would sit together watching as the waves of the ocean danced against the rocks as the water joined us in our days.

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We would lay in canoes as the gentle ripples in the water would lull us into an afternoon nap, or how the river would send us on exciting adventures while rafting down it. Those were great times.

The nights were no different. We spent so many nights staying out late enjoying the fireflies that added a romantic glow to our night. We spent many nights camping out in the open air as we lay together making wishes on shooting stars. The possibilities of life were endless, and we were unstoppable.

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Recently something has changed. You betrayed me in so many ways, and because of it, I hate you. I dread hearing from you. I dread knowing you are coming, and you are a constant reminder of the hurt you caused me.

To get past the hurt I am feeling, I need to tell you the reasons I hate you so much. Hopefully, it will give me some closure. You took advantage of our relationship You knew how much I loved you. You knew that I looked forward to the days with you. I would count the days until I was able to feel your warmth on my skin only to have you burn me. The closeness we once share became that of my nightmares.

Your passion and heat used to thrill me, but now I wish it would go away forever. Instead, you taunt me, day after day until there is nothing I can stand about you. You mock me each and every day knowing there is not much I can do to avoid you.

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As with any relationship, people change. Instead of accepting and embracing the changes in me, you make it impossible for me to feel anything but shame. My once toned little body is now a larger, and gravity is taking its toll. Instead of feeling confident about myself, I find myself doing whatever I can to hide those changes.

Some of these changes are hard enough to deal with on my own, like hot flashes. Even when winter is visiting me, hot flashes rear their ugly head, but at least winter shows me ways to give m relief. All you do is make them worse.

I even find myself having trouble concentrating because you consume my every thought Your presence is a constant reminder of how you have burned me, and how just by you being here my mind turns to mush.

Every day I pray you will change. That you will someday find a way to ease the pain you cause me, or at least, that I find a way to get past what I am feeling, but I know that there is nothing that can fix us Summer.

I have had enough with your relentless pursuit to haunt me, day after day, night after night. There is no relief from you. Not even in the security of my home. You find your way in and torture me. Well, now I am fighting back. I may not be able to completely get rid of you, but I have found an alternative that will bring me some peace. Welcome home air conditioning!