Creedance Clearwater Revival (CCR) sang, “ I want to know if you’ve ever seen the rain, coming down on a sunny day?”

 I have. 

There was a storm Friday night that changed my life, but every star shone brightly. I kept looking for a sign of you all around me, as to why this could possibly happen. One second you were here and the next you were gone. In that second, all of the memories of you flooded my soul. 

I drowned in the memories of you. I gasped for air at the kindness and love that was lost when we lost you. I remembered how kind your eyes were. How pure and loving they were and how special I felt when you listened to a story I told or was being silly. I remembered how much you loved us and how much we loved you. 

I remembered your silent strength and your calmness. So stoic, nothing could knock you down. I remembered how dedicated you were. Your laugh, your hugs, and kisses all of those things seem so cruel to not have anymore. 

I hoped the news was all a ploy to scare us like you always used to. The storm swept through and brought me to my knees. My heart felt empty at the loss of you. The aftermath of this storm has me reeling, what will happen next? How do we rebuild? How do we move forward? 

Then I know you would want us to be ok. But I don’t know if that’s possible. We will deal because we have to not because we want to. We will never forget the storm that broke us in our souls, we will never stop loving you and missing your presence in our lives. I will never stop looking for signs of you. 

I will never forget the day I saw the rain coming down on a sunny day.