I Fell Upwards Instead

When I received the news that you were gone
My knees buckled under me
I felt the air leave my lungs
And I couldn’t find the courage to breathe
I passed on the message
My sister fell to her knees
My brother stayed calm
I fell upwards instead
I stood up
My body wouldn’t let me sit
There’s no way this is real
What is it going to be like without you?
How will I rest my weary head?
When all I do is fall upwards instead