Pause For Beauty
In the last few months, the entire world has been on pause. Writing this from my home office, I can say that there are things I miss, and things I don’t miss. I was unemployed and working on my own entrepreneurial goals when the pandemic of 2020 hit. I do not qualify for any financial benefits during this time. My husband is working from home for his day job and had recently taken on his first fast-food job to earn a little extra. He has had more than one job before, from time to time, and while I felt guilty as someone who didn’t have a steady income as he did this, he assured me that he wanted to have a little extra for his own purchases and that it wasn’t anything to do with me.
With time, I have grown accustomed to him working at two jobs, and it has been a true blessing. It gets me a bit of the freedom unemployment accustomed me to when working from home while he was at his day job at the office. We get along well and can go for long trips together with no awkward issues while being in the car for several hours. He and I have worked at our communication skills and our compromising abilities over the years. With him being home all the time, well, it was different. I adjusted to him being around more within a few weeks. When the time goes to him being needed to go back to the office, I will miss him a bit, as it will be another adjustment to make.
This month I accepted a part-time job in the beauty industry, which means I will need to adjust my time to allow for transportation to and from the workplace plus preparation for shifts and working them. The time I have available for my own goals and dreams will need to be prioritized into a fluctuating schedule. It does not concern me at all. I wrote my first book while I had a full-time job at a local call center. A part-time job will still allow me to have the time I need to work on my own projects, more than I had when I wrote my first book. The bonus is that it is in the beauty industry, another area of focus for me. I have written here and on my blog about my interest in makeup. I am an independent representative for a makeup company. I am having a lot of fun with my own adventures with makeup and therefore it was logical to try the business out to see how I would do.
Starting a new business takes time. As an addict of learning as much as I can through the internet, I am constantly stretching my mind to grasp unfamiliar concepts to apply in one or more areas of my life. This article is not being written to tell you what to do to advance your life, however, it is to ask you to pause within your own life to take notice.
Beauty is everywhere, you only need to train your eyes to see what is right under your nose.
Personal development requires a desire to improve yourself. While I didn’t foresee this in my future five years ago, I can see it now as something I need to keep doing. My inner optimist has returned. I thought she was lost forever to the rat race. The future I see before me includes hope and gratitude. Life dimmed several qualities of my former self as a result of my experiences in the world. While I am eagerly fanning the flame to spread more light and goodness into the world; I need to pause when a moment requires my attention.
The other day, I was going to my mailbox. I was en route to my friend’s yarn shop. It was a planned visit, with a task of my own, to get photos of the new jewellery I was adding to what I already have there for sale on consignment. I had some new bling and my camera with me. As I approached the community mailbox, there was another vehicle there ahead of me, and the driver was looking at something in the parking lot.
With social distancing still in effect, he got into his van and drove away. I moved my car closer to the mailbox and parked it. When I gazed over to the ground where the other man had been staring, I saw the most curious thing. A cluster of butterflies was on the ground. Immediately grateful that my camera was with me, I took some pictures of the butterflies on the dirt of the parking lot.
My friend was waiting for me, but she understood when I showed her what the cause of my delay was. Not everyone would have stopped to film the butterflies. The beauty of the moment may have been overlooked by others. To be in that moment, with my camera to just slow down long enough to capture the beauty fluttering on the ground before me was a moment I will remember for the rest of my life. Precisely because I stopped to appreciate what was right under my nose. The beauty of nature.