The Other Part Of Me: Part 3
Rosaline
September 2015
Where am I? Hey, wait. I recognize this place. Why am I here? Damn, I am not sure.
“Hello, Rosaline, I am sorry to have kept you waiting.”
“Oh, it’s no problem.”
“Well, I am very impressed with your resume.”
“Thank you.” Wow, I am not sure how I got this interview. But I am excited.
“Can you start next week?”
“Yes, I can.”
“Well, Jack highly recommended you.”
“I was.”
I smile, not knowing how it is I got here. I have to stop drinking. Still, I am not sure what is up with Jack? He let me go, but now he recommends me to Alondra Fiore from one of the biggest Fashion houses in the world. I am not sure if I am dreaming. I don’t get this. Okay, I will go with it for now. I haven’t had too many good days. I am going with this one.
After we shake hands, I headed out the door.
This is the best day!
Rosaline
November 2015
Man, this has been one interesting time; I am on top of the world. Working for Alondra Fiore was one of the best things that could have ever happened to me. I am feeling like one-hundred percent myself again. All is better, and I can finally see the light.
I do need to find time to thank Jack. I know it’s been a few months.
This time I will come through for him. I owe him. I feel so much better now, and I can see things more clearly. I just hope I don’t mess this up.
Alexa
November 2015
I can’t believe this. It’s been a while since Rosaline and I have talked. I am sure it is all about Jack. She should know he will only hurt her. This is why falling in love is a joke. It is better to stay unattached and just hook up. It is the safest. This way, no one comes out hurt. I must find a way to let her know.
She has to know the truth and even if she thinks this is the way it isn’t. Rosaline needs a wake-up call! She needs to remember the pain and hurt everyone around her brings her. I have tried to show her and tell her.
How many times have they let her down? Especially those close to her. No! I will not allow her to get taken by their lies again!
They will not win. I promise you, Ros! I will be there for you! They will all be sorry for all the pain they have caused you. You will be victorious in all of this. But first, I need to get her to listen to me.
Rosaline
December 2015
Dear diary,
I am not sure what is happening now. I had been feeling okay. Things at work were good, and then suddenly, I want to be home. I want to stay in bed. For example, today I called in sick. But I am not ill. I just felt like staying in bed. I am reverting back to my old patterns. I know it’s only been a day, but I can already feel it.
I also want to be with someone. I want them to be in bed with me. I want to feel special and loved. Yes, I have to feel it. I need it. I crave it. I think I will call in sick for the rest of the week.
I know it sounds bad. But I just need to relax. Yes, that’s it. Before I find my lover, I need to rest. Who am I kidding? I need to have someone in my bed now. I think I will call Nick. Besides, he has wanted me for a while now. Well, enough of this. I am not even sure why I am writing all of this.
-Rosaline
Alexa
December 2015
At last, things are how they are supposed to be. Rosaline is home. She is safe and living her own life again. I know this is all for the best. She needs to stop trying to feel anything. It is best to stop caring. Each time she tries everyone, let’s her down. She is on the right track. Besides, she doesn’t need the job. She has a trust fund. This was the only thing her father did right. It will keep her afloat.
I will make sure she is okay. I always do. Don’t worry, Ros. I am your only friend.
Rosaline
January 2016
Wow, I can’t believe Alondra Fiore has just fired me! How can this be? I don’t even know What I did? I am pissed off!
Who the hell does she think she is? Okay, so she is successful, but the way she went off on the phone.
I really wanted to punch her! How dare she tell me anything? I need to take a deep breath. Am I crazy?
I don’t know what is going on anymore? But I am scared. I am so scared. What am I going to do now? How am I going to get out of this? Should I call mom?
Damn, I need to get a hold of myself. I need to talk to Jack and let him know about Alondra. No, I can’t do that.
I keep crapping on everything that is good. What have I been doing these last two months? I need to check my diary. Hmmm, what is this?
Dear Rosaline,
Don’t worry. I am here for you.
Your friend,
-Alexa
Alexa, who is Alexa? If I only knew. I am scared.
Okay, I have lots of friends from back in college. Maybe I just forgot her. I am sure I will remember. Right?
Rosaline/ Alexa
January 2016
Okay, I am still in a rut since New Year’s came, and I am here with Nick. Surprisingly, he has been an excellent lover. I have enjoyed waking up to him, which is shocking. I never like anyone more than once. More importantly, I like the fact he cooks. I am not sure, but lately, I think about settling down. And who knows, maybe he is the key.
“Oh, shut up, Rosaline!”
“Huh? Who said that?”
“Sorry, but I am done trying to be nice to you.”
“Again, who said that?”
“I think I am settling down. What a load of crap!”
“Am I hallucinating? Damn, I think Nick put something in my drink.”
“No. No. No, you stupid bitch!”
“Who the hell is here?”
“Damn, Rosaline, you really are an idiot!”
“Who is this?”
“Must I spell this out for you!”
“Who is this?”
“Damn, Rosaline, it’s me, Alexa.”
“What? Alexa? Okay. You are the one who left the message on my diary entry?”
“Yes. That’s me.”
“So why can’t I see you? Are you hiding?”
“No, I am not hiding.”
“Okay, now this is getting weird. So where are you? Are you a ghost?”
“Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. No, I am not a ghost.”
“Okay, there was no need to laugh.”
“Yes, there was.”
“Okay, so what is so funny?”
You.
“Why is that?”
“Do you really want to know?”
“What the hell? Yes!”
“Okay, there’s no need to get upset!”
“What do you mean don’t get upset, you called me a stupid bitch!”
“Okay, I see your point. Still, I want to apologize. Perhaps I was a bit harsh.”
“A bit harsh?”
“Okay, I was insensitive, my apologies.”
“Look, I am not sure who you are or where you are, but I need you to leave now!”
“Sorry, I can’t do that, Rosaline.”
“Why the hell not?”
“Why don’t you come to the mirror?”
“Why would I want to do that?”
“Oh, come on now! Trust me!”
“Fine! If that’s what it will take for you to leave!”
“Okay, now take a look.”
“I am looking.”
“I am right here.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Rosaline, stop fighting it!”
“I am so confused.”
“Rosaline, I am inside here with you.”
“Alexa, you are being ridiculous.”
“I am afraid I am not.”
“What do you mean?”
“Look, Rosaline. I have had enough of your bull!”
“My bull? If anyone should be mad, it is me!”
“Trust me, Rosaline. You need to face the truth and now.”
“I still don’t understand.”
“You do, Rosaline. You are just afraid.”
“Afraid of what?”
“Of me.”
“Why would I be afraid of you?”
“Because… I am part of you.”
“I think you are losing your mind.”
“I assure you I am not.”
Now, I am shaking. I don’t understand any of it.
“Rosaline, look in the mirror, darling.”
“I am afraid too.”
“Just look okay.”
“Okay.”
“See, I am right in front of you.”
“But this can’t be.”
“But it is.”
“Why are you trying to hurt me?”
“I am not trying to hurt you, Rosaline.”
“But you can’t be here!”
“Listen, there is no need to shout.”
“I refuse to believe you.”
“Darling, it’s too late now.”
“What’s going to happen to me now?”
“I am running this show.”
“But I don’t want you too.”
“Rosaline, you have no choice now.”
“I think I am going insane.”
“Not at all, babe, you are finally living!”
“I need to go back to bed.”
“Yes, you do. Go back and enjoy your rest.”
“Will I be okay?”
“Not sure, but I know the other part of you is here to stay.”
“I need to wake up. I need to get help.”
“Just go back to sleep, Rosaline.”
“Alexa is here to stay.”
“Please don’t do this!”
“It is for the best. Good Bye, Rosaline.”
