War Within

Losing ground,
a soldier in
an unending nightmare.
fighting; for my sanity.
The war within,
fought from day one,
surviving, fighting,
scratching for a space
of mindscape, undamaged.
A soldier in a war,
fought on home ground,
a war for survival; against terror
and pain sublime.
Fighting against self,
against shame,
When it is over
I wonder, how much
of me will remain?