When the sun sets and darkness comes
As I crawl into my bed
The thoughts seem to claw at me
And rattle inside my head

What is the point of anything?
Why do we try at all?
We work and sleep until we pass
Succumbing to mediocrity’s call

When my eyes do close all I see
Are things I should have done
I see all the battles I’ve lost
But none of the ones that I’ve won

I grip my arms and hug myself
As if they’ll leave me alone
But the thoughts have followed me everywhere
No matter how far I’ve gone

They wrap themselves around me
And secure me in my fear
I’m the only one who can save me
No one else can even hear

The thoughts inside my head
They don’t see how they suffocate
They see my smile and hear my laugh
And think my life is great

I’m not saying it’s all that bad
But I do struggle alot
Just because I’m there for you
Doesn’t mean I’m not

Going through it myself
Or crying myself to sleep
Because I feel like I’m withering
And I’ll never reach my dreams

They seem so far away
But the picture is so clear
Yet when I try to build it
It seems to disappear

And I’m left with frustrations
That my life is speeding by
And that I’ll never make it
Even if I try…

And

On and on my thoughts will race
Until I finally fall asleep
Hopefully my raging thoughts
Will not invade my dreams.