Last week, I made the difficult decision to switch mental health providers. I wasn’t getting what I needed out of our sessions. We spent the majority of the time discussing current events and arguing about various things. They liked to tell me things, and I felt like I wasn’t being heard.

My love of reading and current habit of scrolling through videos on TikTok and Instagram was explained as me putting others’ experiences on myself. This has caused me not to be able to focus on anything besides tasks for other people. Every time I sit down to write, I start and immediately delete my thoughts.

An Old Nemesis

Writers’ block is no stranger to me. The blinking cursor is my worst enemy. I wish I could plug my brain into my computer, and everything would translate on paper automatically. One word at a time. That’s what I always say. A few words become a sentence. Sentences turn into paragraphs. Paragraphs turn into pages, and the next thing you know, you have a written piece. It’s that simple. Just write. That’s easier said than done. The only words floating around in my brain right now are a weird mashup of the original Pokémon theme song and “Flowers” by Miley Cyrus. 

A New Approach

I won’t have a sudden career as a DJ. I wish I could create cool mixes. Writing seems to be my only talent. This means turning on Spotify and picking a random song. Then I listen to the recommended playlist until I calm down enough to organize my thoughts. Another technique I love is reading another author I admire until I’m inspired enough to think of my future fans.

Your Thoughts Matter 

A single word or thought can change the entire course of someone’s life. You never know what can inspire another person. Don’t ever let anyone feel like you don’t matter. Your thoughts may be jumbled now, but you’ll sort it out. Give yourself time and space. You deserve it.