Distractions
I cannot
There is no way
I cannot face
What happened today
I must do something
I must move quick
My heart beat is too fast
I feel quite sick
Something went wrong
Something’s amiss
It’s out of my control
Something I cannot fix.
I surf the web
I clutch my chest
Oh look, a new video
Oh look, the best way
To build a new bed frame
Made from pallets of wood
Oh look how to heal from
Traumas from childhood.
Oh look, some cute kittens
Oh look, something funny
Oh look, a new pin
Oh, how to make money
I take a deep breath
I let go of my gown
I close my eyes
As I start to calm down
I lie to myself
I say it’s okay
Over and over
Til the pain goes away
