Reluctant Defiance

I want so much to not want you,
Yet with every breath, you flood my mind anew
I try to shake these thoughts away,
But in that effort, I only find I miss you more each day
Fingers locked, I drift softly in your touch,
Yet I hold back, afraid to fall too much
Your kisses, sweet and full of heat,
Lift me gently, but I won’t let them sweep me off my feet
I daydream of you, lost for hours,
Your image stirs desires I can’t keep from my heart’s towers
Your touch lingers, waking every sense,
And your scent intoxicates me, leaving me defenseless
With every sigh, I ache in blissful strife,
For I long so deeply not to want you in my life
Editor: Lisa Mildon
Wow!
I feel this so hard!
Thank you for putting it into words!