My “Missing You” Playlist
We all deal with grief differently. My little sister reads sad quotes on Pinterest that express how she feels better than she can. My brother doesn’t like to get out at the cemetery because it makes Dad’s death real. I write and publish my reflections on grief for strangers to read. Writing about it is easier than talking to someone about how I’m feeling or letting the grief overwhelm me.
I have a hard time letting myself cry about it when I’m alone. I like pretending that I’m strong enough to deal with the pain of losing Dad on my own. To me, crying is a way of showing that I need help, and I don’t want to need help. I don’t want people to think they have to stop and care for me, because I’m an adult. I should be able to handle losing Dad without asking for help. Still, there are times when missing him becomes too hard to handle.
There’s a playlist on my phone that is guaranteed to make me cry when I listen to it. I usually save it for long car rides after I’ve had a bad week and I’m missing Dad like crazy. I’ve been listening to it more lately because we are nearing the three-year mark since he passed away from colorectal cancer. Maybe it’s because I don’t feel like he’s been gone that long. Maybe it’s because I still haven’t accepted the fact that he’s gone.
I mean, I will still try to call him whenever I have good news or have a question or simply want to tell him I love him even though I know he won’t answer the phone and it will break my heart all over again.
Moments like this are why I have such a sad playlist on my phone, filled with songs specifically about missing Dad. I know I’m not the only one who has lost someone, which is why I’m sharing some of these songs with you today! I made sure that most of the songs I’ve shared will work for anyone you’re grieving. Fair warning, the songs down below are more than guaranteed to bring you to tears when you’re missing someone.