Mama Knows Best – Chapter 16
Mama Knows Best
In 1859, Darwin introduced his theory of human evolution. He described “survival of the fittest” as the idea that those most adapted to their environment were more prone to live and procreate.
Perhaps Charles underestimated that survival involves more than physics. Fast-forward to the present. Our intellect, ability to mimic socially desirable skills, willpower, and the imprint we leave on others. All are crucial in determining if our stories will be told and if we’ll leave a legacy—even after moments of despair, like the one I faced on Christmas Eve.
Following what happened at the Joneses, my mind was a whirl of confusion. The firefighters lifted me and rushed me to the hospital, their siren wailing more than a husky waiting for food. Once there, hospital staff admitted me and treated my injuries. I drifted away during that period. Police officers frequently visited and questioned doctors and nurses about my identity and medical condition.
That was how I overheard them comment about Mia’s statement. “She’s the little boy’s teacher and became close friends with the mother,” one of them said out loud. “They got closer and realized that both were victims of some kind of violence from their partners.”
Two nurses heard from the blond firefighter, “The man she killed beat his child and wife.” They concluded, “The woman stood between them and took matters into her own hands, and prevented the worst from happening.”
Though her story suggested I went out of control, Mrs. Jones’ account was detailed. Still, the officers whispered about missing puzzle pieces: the murder weapon was gone, and Richard was never mentioned.
While I was in the hospital, someone reached the restaurant staff and suggested they call Shannaya. She changed plans, took the next flight, and returned on the 29th. After some bureaucratic headaches, she finally laid her eyes on me.
Tears streamed down her tanned cheeks, and her voice broke as she struggled to find the right words. She was a force of nature—her blunt, unfiltered honesty was one thing I cherished most. Although she was worried, she scolded me; she’d spent hours preparing my favorite food and drinks for New Year’s Eve, and now I wouldn’t be there to share it in her home.
She walked the streets of Rio de Janeiro for countless hours, in search of a gift she thought I would appreciate, rather than settling for a generic souvenir. She unwrapped a package with the most stunning floral dress I had ever seen. Guilt washed over me for the first time: she should have been enjoying the beach, sipping caipirinha, and relaxing. Instead, she cared for me. I thanked her and agreed on the perfect occasion to wear it.
Days later, friends stopped by to offer their love and support. Although my actions caused some to disagree, a few people—such as the restaurant’s staff, Mr. Patel, Mrs. Brooks, and my dearest Joanne Davis—already knew my true character.
Joanie wore a black skirt and blazer set, with big buttons and fine golden needlework that depicted birds on her blazer. Her shoes matched her purse. Gold accessories completed the outfit. She looked like a million dollars, so I complimented her. She said nice things about my dress too, caressed my hair, and hummed many of my mother’s favorite Christian songs.
Despite being wrapped in their care, each beat of my heart ached with longing for my son. The emptiness gnawed at me daily. Mia understood this pain—she knew my devotion, saw that my love was unconditional. And yet, she stepped away and took our little man with her, leaving me in a silence so profound it hollowed out every room. I learned in whispers that they started therapy and tried to move on, but Mia kept her distance and made sure he would not speak to me.
After that, I became emotionally paralyzed. Joy vanished; hours passed without purpose. My longing was an open wound for years—until he called.
“M-Ms. Graham?”
I couldn’t believe my ears. My chest felt like fireworks on the 4th of July.
“Josh? Is that you?”
He remained silent for a couple of minutes. For me, it was an eternity.
“Yeah, it’s me. How have you been?”
“I’m… not sure.”
The way he hesitated brought shivers to my spine; a wave of anger sparked inside me.
“What is bothering you, little man? Oh, sorry. I can’t call you that anymore, can I?”
He chuckled, and for a moment, my worries faded away.
“Not really.” He chuckled. “But I missed this.”
What he said thawed the ice within me. Tears spilled over—grief and relief tangling together—as my life ignited with hope I’d thought was lost forever.
“So did I, buddy.”
My son’s shaky voice was filled with hesitation. Though as we talked, he unveiled hidden concerns and disclosed the true purpose of his call.
“Remember the promise you made me back then? To be my shield, the same as Captain America’s…”
“The answer is yes, Josh. I meant, and I still mean, every single word of it.”
He sighed; his relief sounded genuine. I realized at once he was as eager for our reunion as I was.
“A lot is happening these days, Mama. Where should I start?”
* * * * *
Our relationship was rebuilt from that point. Josh often got in touch, and our talks never seemed to end. I learned Mia was doing well, selling her art online. She regretted our ending and avoided discussing it.
What I’d dreamed of materialized. No matter the distance, I became his confidante and supported him at school from afar. He went to a new school, built friendships, and joined activities.
Despite the improvement in our relationship, something else was on my mind.
The Christmas Eve events stirred that within him. Like a potion bubbling in a cauldron, it simmered day after day. My son came to see that the world could be wonderful, but only if people were willing to act when others would not.
It started with glances at classmates who bullied others, about a year after that night. It hadn’t turned physical yet, but rage burned within him. Visits to the psychologist increased, but Josh felt unheard. From that day, he acted as if nothing was happening, as I once did.
I reminded him of Mia’s words the last time we saw each other: “She needs you more than ever. The world does too. You are a protector, big guy.” I praised him.
His confidence showed now. He told me about his first suspension—for defending a friend from insults—and brought up Steele’s death.
In the end, it turned out that my plan worked just fine. Nine months after I killed that disgusting leech, the police discovered his skeleton where I had left it.
“The cops said if there were no blood marks on the floor, it would be difficult to treat the case as something other than a sudden illness.” His eyes had a wonderful glow of curiosity. “How did you do it?”
“Knowing how to handle a good knife for cooking is the key. The kitchen teaches tricks to keep you alive, and the others, not so much.”
“Can you teach me how to use it, the way you did?” Josh smirked.
“Anything for you, son. I think this is a great opportunity you came and visited me.”
* * * * *
Months later, on a sunny day, the birds chirped, a warm breeze blew, and the sky was as blue as my eyes. Josh was punctual—he had a beautiful flower vase in his hands, and hummed “Carol of the Bells.” It took him some time to find the right place, but I was there, waiting for his arrival.
The years were gentle to him; he had grown into a striking teenager. His beloved red sneakers were there, now in a larger size. He wore ripped jeans and a white T-shirt with a spiky-haired anime character. His nose had the same playful look, and his eyes shone the color of soft grass.
The boy kneeled beside my gravestone, read the inscriptions to ensure he had found the right spot, and placed his gift at its base.
“I got these chrysanthemums for you. Hope you like them.”
“Thank you, honey. They are beautiful.”
He extended his hand to touch the cold granite.
“It was you, all along, then. The one who snatched my blade, on Christmas Eve.”
Josh nodded, reached behind his back, and pulled out the cold iron blade from its hiding spot. My cherished companion was there, spotless.
“Something made me do it. Back then, I didn’t understand what it was. But everything you said that night was engraved in me. I realized Mom loved me, but not the way you did. Daniel didn’t give me, not even ten percent of that. And that’s how I believe we should feel and act towards the ones we care for.”
Hearing this filled me with a powerful, bittersweet affirmation. My struggles, sacrifices, and feelings were meaningful. I had survived, endured loss and regret, but my legacy—the part of me that mattered most—would live on. My heart swelled with pride and gentle grief as I understood at last I was seen and remembered.
“You took care of it well, son. You deserve it. This knife is what you need. I am going to teach you everything I know about how to handle it. We have time now that I’m on your mind; we will be together forever. You listen. Mama knows best.”
